Nephew Time

Got to spend time with my nephew today. Made me a very happy auntie :-)

Weight Loss Update (including pics)

I haven't really lost much weight per se, but I have definitely been dropping sizes! it's a great feeling,  but it's also REALLY annoying with nothing fits!!!

Insurance, Infertility, and Birth Control

I like reading commentary articles, blog posts and a bunch of stuff like that. It's always fun, even if somewhat aggravating, to read what others believe and how they feel about certain issues. Some I laugh at, because you can see they don't have any clearly thought out arguments for or against something. They just have a gut instinct. I can respect that, but I have to laugh when they try to turn gut instinct into logical argument. Others are thought provoking and make me question my own beliefs on the issue. Or maybe they reaffirm my desire to remain undecided on a certain issue.

Bad Week

been having one of those weeks where NOTHING seems to go right. And today just seemed like the icing on the cake.

finally got our bed frame we have been wanting to get for a year now. We used some of the tax return we go to actually complete out bedroom! That was a plus... Except...I ended up leaving my adorable mini binder with my coupons in the store at the register.

my brain was NOT working.

so we go and we are halfway home from Ikea (about 30 minutes) when I realized. I simultaneously realized we couldn't go back because of all the errands we had to do on hubby's one day off

it was also one of those days where slow drivers, people laughing too loudly, and smells just drove me bonkers. I was constantly snapping and totally ashamed of myself for acting that way.

I did previously mention that this has been building up all week and today has been one of those "I just wanna cry my eyes out days," right?

so then came the big one.

it was posted on Pinterest as an April fools joke. For the majority of the population, I can see why it would be funny. But for me, and a few of my friends, it's a joke that would break our hearts, and our husband's hearts

it was a joke where you buy a cheap EPT and have a pregnant friend take it. Then take it home, pretend you took it, and show it to your spouse

the lady who took it had a one year old and her husbands reaction was hilarious. A commenter wrote about doing it to her hubs when their child was 5 months old.

I get. I do. I really get it.

but my heart broke

why?

I may never see that positive line show up on a test. Hubs may never get the joy of that moment when he realizes that he is going to be a dad when I show it to him

sure, we could adopt and raise a family that way. And we desperately want to once we are in a slightly better financial situation. And while welcoming a child into our home in any capacity would be a great joy for us, that positive pregnancy test could be one of those things we would miss, if my fears are confirmed.

yes, the joke could be funny. But it can be hurtful too

so I'm asking the few people that read this, think before you speak, or pin, or post. You may not realize how much something could be killing someone else inside, though they'd never be able to tell you.

Oversharing

My Bible Project

At the beginning of the year I started a "read the bible in a year challenge. i may have mentioned this already, but if i haven't, you can find out more about the challenege i am doing here. Its been really great, and though i have fallen a few days behind due to my mother coming into town for a weekend, it has been an amazing experience so far. There's even some awesome bookmarks you can print out. They are super cute, and as much as i love them, they weren't working in my Bible...

Marathon Training and Weight Loss Update

Okay, so the title today is a bit misleading. Mainly because I haven't actually been doing much training due to the cold weather. I also can't tell you if I've actually lost any weight because I don't own a scale. I know, my marathon goals and weight loss goals are going to be SOOOO easy to keep up with. :-P